therealbrianna | Come As You Are // Open Post

That does sound nice.

[Hmm. She won't go into that first statement of yours just yet.]

Care to bring me to a great place to sit in here? So that we can catch up properly.

[And so that she can get to the bottom of things for you. You're not exactly friends yet (or are you?), but you are Liandrin Delacroix's current student, and Hikaru's newest daughter. She wants to look out for you.]

[ And she takes Aria to a spot in her garden. It's a bit in the center, but it's surrounded by high shrubs and big, big flowers. There is a garden swing set with a canopy that can comfortably seat two. ]

Is this an okay spot for you?

[ She's quite proud of this particular spot. A bit of imagination, a bit of taste in furniture. ]

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Oh, definitely. It's beautiful!

[Because it is. You know for a fact that Aria never, ever says what she doesn't mean.

Settling down one side of that swing now.]

Shall I take care of the booze and the cigarettes for us?

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[ She settles in beside Aria. ]

That'd be great, yeah.

[ An ashtray pops up in front of them. ]

[And she's on it. Now the two of you can work through a very large bottle of some of the finest strawberry wine in the Fifth World together, with Black Stone Vanilla cigarettes.]

Cheers?

[She lifts her glass in your direction, after she's poured for you both and handed yours over to you.]

[ She giggles. ]

Fancy. Cheers! [ She's taking that and raising the glass. ]

[She takes a hearty sip after the two of them have their little toast, and leans back with a small, admiring smile directed towards their surroundings.]

I have to admit, Brianna, I am kind of surprised that your safe place is a garden.

[ Herp, she knows exactly what Aria is referring to. First, she takes a sip as well, then she smiles and looks down. ]

I really do love gardens. You know me, I like anything pretty.

[ She'll get into more details later on, but she genuinely wants to hear what Aria thinks. ]

I know you do, but given your history...

[She doesn't continue that thought, and gives you a look that might just tell you that she wants to know, she's concerned and there to listen to whatever you need to talk about, but she isn't going to press too hard if you don't want her to either.]

[ She smiles, but it's a sad one. ]

It's just that in here, I actually have control over things. Anything that takes place happens only because I let it. Anything that grows only will because I wanted it to.

I see.

[Taking a sip from her mine, and leveling the girl with a sympathetic look.]

So you don't feel like you have a lot of control outside of this place?

Oh, in the real world I do. [ A small laugh. ] Not all the time, of course. Things can go wrong but...

[ But no matter how fucked up the world has gotten, nothing compares to that. Time to be honest, Bri. ]

I think maybe this is my mind making up for the absence of control when I was there.

[ There's a brief flash of anger in her eyes. ]

[And this one's immediately scooting over so that she's close enough to reach out and cover your hand with hers.]

Talk to me?

[Saying that gently. Files can only say so much, and sometimes it helps to talk about it.]

[ She smiles at Aria. It's nice that Aria's here. It's surprisingly easy for Brianna to open up to Aria given her gentle nature and years of experience she has above Bri. ]

Kaiser Delacroix told me during my promotion that I should really get into the details of what happened. At first I probably tried to convince myself and others that I was okay when... [ She gestures to the garden. ] ...well, when I'm clearly not. I've been putting it off.

And that's understandable, really. Such things are hard to go back to, and staring painful experiences in the face are frightening. Still...

[Tilting her head down to keep her gaze steady on Brianna's face.]

Lia's right. If you keep it locked up inside, it might hurt you even more someday. It may even end up determining everything you say and do outside of the Dreamscape, without you even knowing it.

[ She nods thoughtfully, clearly giving a lot of thought to what Aria just said. She's not entirely sure what to say, though. She doesn't want that to happen, hurting her more than it already has. ]

You can come to me anytime, if you ever want to try and talk about it. I'm sure that Liandrin and Tala have done what they can, and they'd do more if they weren't so busy.

[Patting your hand.]

I'm not nearly as busy, and I'm always just a phone call away. You don't have to do this alone.

[ Brianna looks up and thanks Aria with a smile. ]

I think now's the perfect time to really talk about it. Can't keep putting it off, anyway.

Very well. I'm all ears.

[And she's going to keep holding your hand for a bit, because that sort of thing tends to help.]

[ She takes a deep breath before starting. ]

I guess seeing the rest do okay with their personal baggage makes me happy, but it also gets me thinking. Maybe... no, I definitely am just scared that I won't be able to achieve what I want at the end of it. Getting my revenge is helpful, yeah. But it won't change the fact that it happened. I can make them pay for what they did, but I can never make them undo it.

No, you can't. Even if you really, really wanted to.

[Past is past, after all. It's the one thing that even people like Aidan Clayce could not change.]

Still, that does leave you with an interesting problem, doesn't it?

[ Brianna nods. ]

When I had problems in the past that were a lot more superficial, I'd just breeze past them, not really giving much care or thought to them. It's different now, but I guess it's not really that bad of a thing. Especially since I've come to terms with the fact that I was living a half-lie. [ A small, disdainful huff at that. ] Whereas now, I'm living a whole truth.

Is it all that it's chalked up to be, in your opinion? Living a whole truth, I mean.

[Because from what Aria had seen over the past sixty years, many people chose to do the brave thing and ended up being crushed by it later down the line. That was always a very real possibility, even for the best of them.]

[ Brianna thinks on that for a moment with a thoughtful look on her face. ]

I think... if someone isn't brave enough to face the truth, then he or she would choose the lie. It's just really more comfortable. Some people can just choose to ignore it.

[ She doesn't answer Aria directly. As of the moment, she's not really sure what to tell her. If anything though, what she said is a good enough base to start on. ]

Yet you can't ignore it forever.

[She knows about that sort of thing. Ignoring problems, living in denial.]

I'm glad that you've taken the first step, at least. What sort of things give you trouble at the moment, though?

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